First Love

What is love? for me, I would never be able to describe it with words, i find that to be imposible ._.
but... my life would never be the same if it werent for him...

I dont know if it's love or not... but...

Everytime I see him I end up smiling
and when he notices when im cold and warms my hand with both of his hands, i love that

I remember back when just holoding hands was the most amazing thing in the world

or our first kiss... it was truly amazing.

Even though he cant go on dates, or he cant spend that much time afterschool with me,
I love every single moment I spend with him

I've learned to appreciate every single moment, every single hug, every single kiss,
everything is so special...

It just makes me so happy to be with him,
its a feeling I've never felt before...

I still remember
a few months ago...
i dont know how I did it, but i told him that I liked him
I still wonder where did that courage came from...

I remember not sleeping that night,
I spent the entire night thinking about him...
Wishing that somehow... my wish could come true...

I remember...
asking him out, it was embarassing, especially because I did it twice
but it was worth it...

I remember
how much I hated summer
I couldnt see him
I wanted to be with him
I missed him so much...

He suddenly became my inspiration
the reason why I write...

He suddenly became the most important guy in my life...

I remember...

how awkward everything was when I saw him in the first day of school
but it was kinda of funny

I remember, the first time we hold hands...
I was so happy...

And our first kiss... was.. I wouldnt even know how to describe it

I think that one of the reasons that made that kiss that special was because,
because I told him 'i love you' for the first time...

Besides family and my angel, I've never actually said that to anyone

I somehow I ended up crying, but after thinking about it over and over...
I think I finally now why I cried...
I just love him...

But...
I felt so weak
it was as if I died and went to heaven...
It was the best feeling in the world...

I don't know if it's normal to feel like this
so weak... I've never felt so weak in my life...

And I feel like that everytime we kiss...
and I love it...

Is there something as loving someone too much?
I guess there is... at least I do...

I can't picture myself with any other guy
its imposible...

I would like to say 'I'll be with him forever'
but 'forever' is a word I would never use...

I would like to spend more time with him
and get to know him more,

maybe
maybe...
Will my next wish come true?

If it does...
I would def. start freaking out
so many wishes have come true lately...

but if it does..
just this tiny small wish...

I guess for now,
the only thing I'll say is...

That I love him...
he is... everything that I wanted
Everything that I wished...

And as my sweet and loving cousin said...
I'll just keep fighting for my man :)